So life officially hates me. It's official! & I hate it too. So we have something in common. errr! I just had a really bad day. I'm burnt from the pool the other day & I'm going back tomorrow. I think. Maybe not. I'm just sick of A LOT of things right now. I would LOVE to tell you that everything's GREAT! That I got a job finally and that I'm moving out soon and I'm happy, but that's FAR from the truth. I'm not happy, the job thing sucks, nobody believes me that I'm trying, my parents aren't helping in the least bit, & my Dad and I are as far apart as ever! I can't take it anymore. I stay up all night to avoid my Dad during the day and when I am awake I leave so I don't HAVE to deal with him. My Mom thinks I'm lazy and won't get a job so I can run around when I'm trying sooo hard. I have to force myself half the time to wake up before 3:00! But if I wake up when a normal person does I can't go downstaires because my Dad is weird & I don't want to sit upstaires all morning and I REALLY DON'T want to argue with him because my mom thinks I have an attitude when I NEVER do. She's never there when he says things, he's turns it around on me. So I avoid him. But NOW my mom thinks that I'm lazy and that I don't want a job and that I'm blowing everybody off. No matter what I do to keep anyone happy it backfires in  my face. I can't talk to my friends about it. They don't understand they just say why don't you move out if you hate your Dad so much. Well if it was that easy I would do it. But there's this little thing called money that seems to make everything work and I am lacking it! && you REALLY don't want to know what else is going on. I need to go to the doctor for sooo many things but I'm not on my parents insurance anymore and I can't pay for it! ERRR I need to go get my clothes out of the dryer so my Dad doesn't throw them on the basement floor in the morning to wash his "interview" clothes.

<3 Mel

Well I'm sooo freaking tired, but I HAVE to clean my room before I go to sleep because I want to see Scott tomorrow. He means soo much to me. So I'm gonna get my room in order so I can see him tomorrow. My mom won't let me do anything unless I do. Anyways. I hung out with Val over the weekend, but she kinda ditched me towards the end. She had to go help Nick... =-/ I was like whatever. So I had to stay at my brother's and watch his kids for free the second day which was the deal even though Val didn't stay. So I was kinda mad. My tongue is doing great. The swelling is almost all the way gone. A few more days and I should be able to change it! I Have purple cue tips... I got them at Wal*Mart... sorry they were right in front of me and I thought they were cute. Anyways I need to get my stuff together.....I want to move out and at this rate it's not gonna happen. Anyways here's some random pictures... yea I am that bored. but I needs to attend to my room or I'm going the be the pathetic 18 year old with NO life. =-/

<3 Mel

My Scottie

Scott's mirror, My Camera & the contest of my purse all over his bed. =-] *lol*

I LOVE Summer

At Scott's house I don't know where he was but I was playing around with the camera again. =-]

He has no idea that EVERY wish has SOMETHING to do with him

Me being goofy towards the end of the School year... Senior year.. I'm gonna miss it. =-]